Thoughts from a Dark Night

There are no stars; no moon tonight.
There is a mist – a type of blight –
That swallows up the headlights
As they dimly make their way –

As peering through the window, I
Turn back, to where you used to lie,
Before I lied too many times –
And you – you went away —

For here’s truth about our souls:
They’re empty, dark, and full of holes
Punched through by lust and selfishness
And our hearts’ disarray –

And I was chief among the worst;
I put you last and put me first,
And strove to keep you on a string
While you gave love full play –

But in the darkness here, in hell,
I see what I am all too well;
A spoiled and conniving thief
Who’s lived to rue the day

I ever turned your loving free.
There’s nothing left to comfort me;
I’m old in heart as I can be
And lonely as a stray

That wanders darkened streets at night.
I cannot turn my wrong to right:
I can’t undo what I have done,
To you, my love, my only one;
Who loved me through the coldest night,
Which I returned with only spite.

If you’d still listen, I would say…

You’re better off now, better free —
Than ever you had been
With me

Lesson Learned

If she could shut her feelings off,
She’d would, Lord knows she would –
She’s tired of the tossing and
The turning —

If she could leave it all behind,
She banish it for good –
She’s wise enough:
She’s done with all this
Learning

Cello and Piano

Cello and Piano

[Note: this might be a bit overdramatic, but it is how I feel. For what that’s worth. – Owen]

I miss the days of music with my daughter;
She’s older now, and put all that away –
I miss the sound of cello and piano;
I missed it back when there was a ‘last day’ —

A last day that we’d ever play together.
She says we will again, but then delays,
As months turn into years, and there’s no music –
There’s only one of two still there who plays.

To work so hard to get so very good,
Then carelessly leave all of that behind;
To leave behind the good in us for nothing,
And let the years spin by until we find

That when we’re ready duets to resume
The other half of them is in
Their tomb

Dreams

In dreams, her life went differently
The choices that she made;
And not coincidentally
She never got betrayed

By selfishness or laziness
Dressed up like true desire:
In dreams, her life is not so low
And keeps on getting
Higher

Unsuccessful Escape

Planetary Landscape

I ran from voices that I heard
That spoke of all I had not done
I traveled far, to lands unknown,
Past rising moon and setting sun

I wished myself upon a star
To dwell among the skies above
But found the universe too small
For me to flee regretted love