Behind the Fence

She was his love, behind the fence, 
 but he was loth to show it; 
She was his only, long, true, love -- 
 but didn't know it. 

He built them castles made of ice, 
 to float with weightlessness; 
His every thought, of her, while she 
 could not care less. 

Behind the fence was where she stayed, 
 while he grew old with waiting -- 
A love made up of naught, but one 
 anticipating

Amid the Blight

In the cold and lonely morning, 
 In the gray and sullen light, 
 There's a sadness, and a longing 
 With each step amid the blight. 

There's a comfort, somehow, knowing 
 That the world is past our might; 
 That there's more than just what's showing, 
 All the pain amid the blight. 

Are you loved, and are you loving? 
 Are you moved by others' plight?
 Or are you dancing in the shadows
 And the snow amid the blight?

In the long and silver morning,
 Truth is evident, if trite:
 We no perjury suborning,
 Must trod on amid the blight.

the state of the world.

a welcoming of everything like sun,
the marriage of convenience and desire,
a cabaret of indolence and peace.

how is it that one finds a separate peace
with all our troubles magnified by sun
that shines into the cracks in our desire?

a shibboleth: the words that mean desire --
a constituted wreck upon the peace
of all we worship underneath the sun --

this sun, that burns away desire and peace

Another Life

In music, she can live another life, 
For sound is architecture, and ideal;
It’s nature and it’s calm amid the strife
Of all the world has come to make her feel.

To make of chaos, beauty, order, love —
To find in sorrow, comfort and release —
To be beneath, within, and yet above,
To breathe in every moment filled with peace

But also, there’s the struggle of technique:
To concentrate on something not herself
And use her heart and mind both at their peak
While being fully present, somewhere else

And all of this, it should be understood
From one whose playing isn’t all that good



In The Whirl of Seasons (3)

Summer hits hard 
When you’re on your feet all day

Customers, patrons, friends
Seem like
So many hostile invaders after awhile

And she has eight more weeks of this
Before she goes back to school

And she can’t remember
Why she took this job
Why she’s even going to school
Or why being around people
Tires her out like this

She’d love a glass of wine,
But that will have to wait

For payday

In The Whirl of Seasons (2)

Love may not begin with self-love,
But it rarely makes it past its absence.
Exercise and forest air,
Water, sweat, and absent noise --
She finds that working at loving herself
Tends to achieve its objectives, at best,
Imperceptibly.

But she trusts the process, as they say.

To cultivate her mind, she is learning,
Exploring, venturing --
To cultivate her body, she is working,
Disciplined, sacrificing --
But to cultivate her heart, she must
Love what is closest to her, namely

Her

Breakfast Buffet, Pre-Open

Early Wednesday, people stirring, 
Place not open, motors whirring, 
Lobbies full of walkers bleary, 
Heavy baggage, workers weary, 

Lonely trav'ler, sittting, waiting 
Scanning phone and incubating 
Thoughts of nothing, applications 
Made for daily mass sedations 

Breakfast soon and what's-called coffee, 
Toxins for the ever-groggy, 
Working, fretting, selling, buying -- 
Life goes on amid 

The dying