the staying of dismissal: he remains. but still she is unsure, and thinks that, perhaps, she granted clemency where there was no sincere remorse (maybe?) there is no process so impossible to untangle as that of strangering: how it is people we know become people we never knew. = = = she stares, now, at a piece of paper: on it, test results that say he won't be here much longer. and where it the doubt, now? who is it she has become a stranger to?