…People always make fun of me, she said,
Kids in school said I was retarded
[oh, girl, i know i was there, i never spoke up for you i’m so sorry]
No boy has ever loved me, she said;
I don’t even have real friends –
Well, I have one.
My mom got me a spa membership, and
I made one friend, a woman at the spa
So, you’ve made a friend?
That’s good, I said,
Tell me about her
Her name is Daisy – she’s a teacher —
[my mom has made friends with her… of course.]
So you talk when you’re at the spa?
Yes, she also brought over
An extra workout mat I can use at home –
She’s really nice —
How’s work been going?
It’s lonely —
College cafeteria work – kids my age, but
They don’t even look at me
[i’m going to talk to you when i see you tomorrow! i will.]
Have you had any more thoughts about suicide this week?
She said —
You have a lot to live for – you’re doing great…
Roger? — you sound kind of sad yourself,
The last few times we’ve talked.
Are you okay?
[i’m great, except i’ve hated myself from the moment i realized who you were…]
Oh, no, I’m fine Kathy. I just
Wish sometimes I could help you more.
You all are there to talk to.
That means everything to someone like me —
I’m gonna go now…
[my god, i despise myself right now]