As long as I’ve had memories, I’ve battled with my heart; It doesn’t want what’s best for me, I know — Each day that I awake, the fighting once again will start; It happens now, wherever I may go Like rings inside of rings, as though I was made out of Saturns: I try to … Continue reading "Battling with my Heart"
If love could make a place for you to fall, A place where life would never come undone, I would pay any price, I’d risk it all, To try to shield you from yourself, my son There is no heartbreak I could undergo I would not take, if I could help you see; But … Continue reading "If love could make a place for you to fall…"
A drop that spreads into a pool, And bleeds his conscience thereupon; To be, but be a useless tool — He feels depression coming on The slow way in, the quick way out, The answers leaving only doubt, The dash that turns to marathon — He feels depression coming on A spectacle, phenomenon, This sophistry … Continue reading "Onset"
I am a broken down refrigerator That is hot inside instead of cold I still look like a working cooler But my insides are all wrong For everything I internalize Ends up spoiled (“Mental Illness” – 7-23-2014)
she lived awash in frenzy, wracked with fear; i knew her when we both were locked in here — i lived, and she did not. i don’t know why: some stumble on, while others stop, and die — I wept, and watched time stop, and space get curved: for neither of us got what we … Continue reading "deserved"
beautiful can’t stop the voices screaming in her head; beautiful can’t bring the sleep she wishes for in bed beautiful can’t hide the visions chasing her at night; she’s beautiful, but that won’t keep the shadow from the light
My youngest son, who I love with all I am.
What does it look like? Do you think you know?
I met her at the hospital I remember her Always in her yellow bathrobe With matching yellow slippers She was only a few years older than I was She told me all about Their house out in the country I kind of knew where they lived I used to drive by their town When I … Continue reading "I Met Her At The Hospital"