Monastic Order Taking

When I was all of twenty-three
I thought to join a monastery
To free myself from earthly strife
And lead a contemplative life

I truly, deeply did aspire
To rid myself of my desire
For women: those that pained my heart –
And so, I vowed to live apart –

But failed to get all the way there
And start that life of work and prayer.
Instead, I found one like it here
Except, I can keep my wife near.

Celtic Isles
Skellig Michael monastery, off the coast of Ireland.

Juxtaposition – What I Wanted & What I Got

Sunrise Santa Rosa Beach

My thoughts lay heavy on my mind
I don’t know what I thought I’d find

And so I rise before the dawn
All that I longed and hoped for gone

To walk beside the restless sea
The ocean whispers there to me

And look for love’s lost answers there
Of losses more than I can bear