I Hate Myself.

For what I have become.

I hate myself for what I have become.
I’ve hated me for years, so what is new?
The life of hatred is a lonely one;
So many things to never try to do –

And now I hate the very thought of all
The things that people thought I’d one day be:
I hate myself in ways beyond recall
I hate myself, but wish that you’d
Love me

Author: Beleaguered Servant

Owen "Beleaguered" Servant (a/k/a Sibelius Russell) writes poetry mostly, with an occasional pause to have a seizure.

7 thoughts on “I Hate Myself.”

  1. We all have a “default” place that we go to in times of personal crisis. It’s familiar territory. Mine happens to be sadness, yours seems to be self-pummeling. Try to have some mercy on yourself if you can muster it up. :/ If you want me to STFU, please tell me, okay?

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      1. It makes perfect sense! No matter how much we loathe ourselves we still want everyone else to love us. We don’t want anyone else to see/know what makes us so unlovable to ourselves. Our little secret. It is profound (Even if you didn’t intend for it to be!). 🙂

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