Another Old Poem, Written Age 16

Please don’t tell me it’s not me.

I know that in relationships
I am no sort of whiz:
But please don’t tell me it’s not me
Because I know it is

It’s me that you don’t want to see
Or talk to anymore:
It’s me that makes you cringe
When I come walking through the door

Listen, I will not make scenes
I will just go away:
Although I’m me, I still have pride –
Just much less

The Lies I Have

An Old Poem, Age 17

The lies I have are full of dreams,

The goals I have are very far;

I cannot help the way I think,

You cannot help the way you are


But as the crocus floats in bloom,

You soar out where the sun meets sky;

And if I stare too long at you

My heart goes blind, and so do I

Old Poem, Written Age 29

I watched them laugh.
I’d loved her once –
But that was many years ago —

I’m glad she’s happy,
There, with him –
I know I never made her so –

The summer wind is all around;
It’s carrying their laughter –
The silence: that was us, before –
The music: that’s them,

Old Poem, Age 20

The seventeenth time I fell in love
I learned important things:
Like how to know when times are good,
Or how to hold on when I should,
And how betrayal stings.

And so I sit and retrospect
Love’s slow and secret climb:
And realize enough to know
That love will come and love will go
An eighteenth time, a nineteenth time…