Sizzle

By happenstance, I am the only one at home —

It’s been a revelation
Writing these pieces

How often I have been in love —
Or thought I was —
How many friends
Have touched my life

I stand here tonight,
By this grill —
By happenstance, I am
The only one at home —

And I realize that
For years
I painted a portrait of myself
At variance
With the actual life
I’ve led

I’ve hardly been a loner
And I’ve experienced enough
For several lifetimes —
Much of it
Good

The steak’s almost ready

And so, I think

Am I