seeking rest

my friend, you were (and i know how) 
a recluse and a polymorph: 
within a castle made of pine 
upon a branch within a tree 
of different wood than in your bones, 
  for you were scent and reticence, 
  a dissident, a fuzziness. 

and i (and you knew this) was where 
the ocean meets the endless sky; 
my head down low, my thoughts up high 
was all illusion, entropy -- 
this strange connection, made of hope
  and flowers, flags, and palindromes, 
  of tractors, beds, and mobile homes.

I am pretty much always tired. I think it has to do with lack of sleep and poor diet.

Oh, and being old.

I don’t want this to be all negative: there are certain advantages to sleepwalking through life. For one thing, you don’t have to be coherent. This works out well, as I frequently am not. For another, people will mistake incoherence for wittiness. I can’t really explain this, I can just note that it happens.

[Me] When is Thursday this week?

[Them] I’m not quite sure how to answer that.

I also realized something like 9 years ago that being incomprehensible is problematic in most areas of life, unless you are either an academic or a poet. Since being a college professor seemed the more remote possibility, I chose the path of poetry. Having written as much as I have, I frequently find myself unable to remember what I was trying to say when viewing an old post.

Probably something important. Or I was just exhausted.

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