Please don’t joke with me today.
I’m not in the mood.
Where’s your head at right now?
I’m not happy –
I know I’m not —
It isn’t you, and
It isn’t “us”;
… although? …
… We’re not exactly perfect
So, you tell me –
Why do you think I might not be happy?
Unsatisfied with your work product –
Problems with your mom and sister –
Tired of people telling you that
you should have kids –
Tired of fighting over money –
Tired of being tired —
That’s a reasonably perceptive list, actually.
Tired of feeling like
I’m all disappointed
When you rely on me
I really don’t mean
To add to your troubles
And I don’t mean to disappoint you
I’m not disappointed,
I’m never disappointed with you
I’m calling B.S. on that
I wouldn’t use the word ‘disappointed’ —
A little frustrated, at times.
But I know I’m being selfish, so
I get over it
I like that you want to be with me, but
Sometimes I need you
To understand and be patient
Patience has never been my best thing
Dealing with other people’s expectations
Has never been mine