An Absence

I guess it’s silence that I fear,
Or maybe crave, I cannot tell:
These strange, familiar feelings — lost
Inside this world I know so well

And all that once was certitude
Comes crashing down in dust and din,
And what a mess I’ve made of things
And what an empty man I’ve been

The fullest, widest feeling: lack.
A prairie spreading everywhere:
This absence that I must traverse
Seems endless, echoless,

And bare


At home, with his soliloquies,
His fantasies, his memories,
His thoughts about disparities,
The youth he’s seen destroyed —

He struggles to find meaning in
The flow he’s intervening in
By screening in, and leaning in
And typing to the void —

For what is self-esteem but this?
To find and hit what seems amiss,
But miss the inside ludicrous 
The unity deranged

A world no longer recognized,
Just shadow-strangers, all despised,
Not knowing, with hope fossilized,
That he’s the one

Who changed

The Quest, Not the Conquest

"The journey, not the destination" --
 That is what they told her;
 But was going anywhere
 Without a "where" to go?

 But now, upon another hill
 With many leagues behind her,
 She's realized the "where's" of life
 Are never all we know

 The only way to reach the truth
 Is sideways, and with stealth --
 And it's the effort makes the journey,
 The crux of what she's learned about