And oh, the desire to not-feel, just
to not feel —
This is a feeling that I know well,
I know it very well.
This wasn’t the way it’s supposed to be:
This shadow that lingers of what was me,
Existing in dreams that have flown away,
Chased out by the flare that is
Each and every
Day —
And, oh, the desire to not-feel, just
to not feel —
To break off the edge of the rage
That I can’t quell.
But maybe in music, or words of grace,
By the friend-surprised look, or the upturned face,
I can lighten the load of another, though
My own weighs me down
Every where
I go —
An, oh, the desire to not-feel, just
to not feel —
To live in a world where the hatchet
Never fell.
The dreams in my head are a world apart,
The words you see now are my secret heart,
For love is a whisper across a lake,
And not everyone who fails
Was merely
Fake —
And, yes, the desire to not-feel, is
Still too real —
To wake up in heaven instead
Of this daily hell —
But if I can’t be the tower, I’ll be
The bell
Reblogged this on Peter's pondering and commented:
How many times have you wished “just to not feel” something? More than a few I would guess. Owen’s poem expresses this so well.
Love to you and to the New Day. We’ll try. No one is so alone.
This wasn’t the way it’s supposed to be:
This shadow that lingers of what was me,
Existing in dreams that have flown away,
Chased out by the flare that is
Each and every
Day
❤️
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